Every time I have to read or do my homework by night, I basically can't do it. I'm like a drunk man banging my head back and forth and sidewards in the midair. Then, I try to open my eyes as wide as it could be, but all I could see is blur. It gives me a hard time doing what's expected for me to do. My brain's too weak after wrapping up every single day with my school, not to mention the three major burden a.k.a. suckers of my life- physics, trigonometry and biotechnology. It drains all my brain cell; thus, making me all weary and want to die on the spot.

If I allow myself and be in lalaland in a short notice for a very early hour at night, mother will again be raising her eyebrows and lecture me for no reason. She badly want me to study eve-ry-day. As if I'm the nerdy child with eyeglasses on and sleeps during the weeee hours due to memorizing very LONG definitions of words or solving every math equation at hand. I hope she understands the fact that I'm not that type of person. And though I try to battle with sleep and read my textbooks, the topics are uninteresting and leads me to zzzzzzz. ----- . -----

I've tried different measures to keep me wide awake. At first, I use to surf the internet. I didn't know it'll only stress my eyes and make it close. Second, I exercise. I do the simple execises I learned from someone years ago; But I always have a feeling that every time I do it, my heart's going to pump more blood than normal and it'll burst out. Third, I tried drinking coffee. Once, I drank the cappuccino that has this woody flavor in it. It went quite well, but the aftertaste suck. The three measures I've tried were all failures. Anybody can help me with my struggle?

--xoxo,
mitchinary